rexuality:

I hate being told to do something I was already planning on doing

like I was all about doing this task, and then you told me to do it and now i am annoyed and this task is now 300x less likely to be completed

(via theerinpala)

problemspoof:

tonessawicki:

why does everyone look so surprised when i say the reason for cutting my hair short is the hot weather, what were u expecting “i need to take my father’s place in war and the chinese army won’t accept women” ???

So what you’re saying is that you’re not going to help defend China from the Huns…?

(Source: barretweed, via knitmecrazy)

My life right now.

My mom is taking really good care of me :)
I think I’m doing much better after the breakdown. And after all that’s happened, being here with my parents and spending all this time with them every day is really, really helping. I miss my Shaun, but I know this is what he thinks will help him. And I’ve realized it’s actually really helping me too.
I’m still having bad days here and there, but that’s to be expected. I’m on new meds and they are really helping me. The only bad thing I can say (and I only think it’s coming from. The meds) is that I feel drowsy and spaced out a lot more than usual. It’s a little disconcerting… But time will tell.
Overall, though, I am happy. I get out of bed pretty much every day without having to force myself and wanting to cry. My parents have encouraged me to carry on with my crochet business, so it’s blooming :D I’m even going to have a giveaway soon. Very exciting. But if I get freaked out or overwhelmed, my mom just holds me and kisses my head, or my dad smiles at me and gives me a hug. Just knowing they are both on my side and love me is a really huge help. I am so beyond lucky to have such wonderful parents. *happy panda*

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Wtf?

Going through all the motions of a breakup, without breaking up. So confusing and unstable :( I’m beyond grateful that we aren’t breaking up, but my brain hurts every day trying to figure out and deal with what’s going on. When will the blows stop coming? I really need rest. I do nothing but crochet but feel like I’ve been running emotional marathons some days.

Me right now. Depressive.

Hello tumblrists. For the ones who follow me for more than cuteness I reblog, I had a huge breakdown. Instead of being hospitalized, I went to stay on my parents farm for a while. Nothing beats having your mommy look after you, no matter your age.
Unfortunately, I have no idea what will be happening with the rest of my life. There are very few things I know right now. Everything is up on the air and there is like NO stability in my life other than my mom and (I really hope) my fiancé’s love we share. I literally don’t know what’s happening and I’m terrified. Although I am on new meds which have been helping a lot, I’m coping with all of this way better than I could have ever expected. Until today. Today I’m scared. Today I’m panicking and I’m feeling all my flaws and failures. I can’t put into words how much I appreciate my mom and even my dad for helping in the best way he can, even though he doesn’t understand depression at all. I was doing okay-ish, especially considering all the things that have been happening and the scary things that have been thrown at me. But today was bad. Hopefully it will pass and I will start doing better again.

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